Past

While it seems like the past is no longer present, it can bear on a back like an infant. I have without knowing what was going on ,been a victim of living through the past but in the future. The past seems to be a repeating theme in my life. Basing many of my life, and relationship decisions on the past without realizing it was effecting my future. When discovering what I was doing I immediately felt the desire to change this baggage and toss it. But then it dawned on me, "why should I permanently throw away these memories! Especially the bad relationship memories, the ones about the ex boyfriend who broke your heart. People tend to throw these memories in a "useless" basket in the back of their head till the basket tips over and all the baggage is back in the fore front.
Growing up it is taught to let go of your past, look forward to the future and other catchy saying about letting go of the past for a better future. As you go through life these little life lessons make you not deal with the past in proper manners. I am the master of putting the crap in the back and as they say "FORGET ABOUT IT! Until the forgotten crept on me like a thief in the night .Causing me to face all these night demons at once. Shocked and frightened at first,then a lesson was born. Deal with the past and do not "FORGET ABOUT IT! We go through things for reasons beyond our understanding especially bad realstionships. We as a people need to learn how to learn again. Learn how to take the good with the bad sort of say, learn how to point the finger at ourselves and take away a lesson with our Past.
It is always a blame game in life, who fault it is? Unwillig to admit to wrong doings especially to anything with a major effect. Looking back at the past is hard. I was the first to turn the cheeck and expect forgiveness. I knew that I had to learn to go through my past and not to forget the people or events that took place in it. In a bad break up with someone, the natural instinct is to move on. However, with movong on you don't really take in the full effect of what made that realtionship work and fail. You miss opportunities to learn about yourself in both lights.
The past can bring forth new beginnings to your future life. The past can often bring every truth to light, for your memory will not hide the details you do not what to remember. The important part is to find lesssons out of the fog, realize where you went wrong, or try put yourself in the others person shoes with out begin judgmental? Remember, how will you know how the bottom feels if your behind has always been at the top? So stop forgetting the past and start embracing it. Make it a new adventure, take it a step further and write down some things you learn on the way. You never know when your ephiany will come, so be fully prepared with no past demons lurking for you around the corner.